Sitting here crying
19-04-2005 | 01:02 PM
#44
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Less, a few years ago i hit rock bottom, thought the best thing was to end it all.
There i was stonnd 100 foot or so on the railing of a motorway bridge, sobbing my heart out ready to jump, friends panicking that i would do something stupid, then a gust of wind sent the the wrong way off the bridge and i fell a full 6 foot, bruised my arse to fook
The next day i went to see the doctor, who put me intouch with a counsillor, and also found a friend who previously i didnt rate whatsoever, but that friend helped me just by chatting and being there.
Now today, 3 near 4 years on i feel mentally stronger and have an ego bigger that Mount Everest.
Dont do it Less, Theres nowt on the other side, I had a look
There i was stonnd 100 foot or so on the railing of a motorway bridge, sobbing my heart out ready to jump, friends panicking that i would do something stupid, then a gust of wind sent the the wrong way off the bridge and i fell a full 6 foot, bruised my arse to fook
The next day i went to see the doctor, who put me intouch with a counsillor, and also found a friend who previously i didnt rate whatsoever, but that friend helped me just by chatting and being there.
Now today, 3 near 4 years on i feel mentally stronger and have an ego bigger that Mount Everest.
Dont do it Less, Theres nowt on the other side, I had a look
19-04-2005 | 01:03 PM
#46
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having a mid life crisis
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Sis not wanna know she not want me,cos i just am embarassing drunk drunk
Dad ithousnads of miles aways
Mum a work and cant answer her phone there
Nor can ubnccle
The rest of fasmily disowned me cos I shit
Dad ithousnads of miles aways
Mum a work and cant answer her phone there
Nor can ubnccle
The rest of fasmily disowned me cos I shit
19-04-2005 | 01:04 PM
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feeling for you less, my sister went thru similar mate, she even deliberly drove at a wall at silly speeds, but you can and will get thru this mate, whats got ya down today? whats happened ?
Get thru them...
19-04-2005 | 01:05 PM
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i know you dont know me but just letting it out to someone is a great help . 07891729762 text or call on that number , give me ur home fone number and i,l call you back .
Phone BRAD 07891729762
Phone BRAD 07891729762
19-04-2005 | 01:09 PM
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Been here. Got the tshirt and the mental scares...
Matey, no matter how bad you feel - like your on the ledge of that fucking big black hole about to fall in there is always some poor c*nt out there who is more worse off that you.
At the end of the day nothing in life is handed to us on a plate... You gotta make things happen. You wont make ya goals if you dont try. Some aint easy some are.
Theres only one person who can make it happen....you.
Climb out of the hole mate. Its easy when you got a ladder of good people to help
Matey, no matter how bad you feel - like your on the ledge of that fucking big black hole about to fall in there is always some poor c*nt out there who is more worse off that you.
At the end of the day nothing in life is handed to us on a plate... You gotta make things happen. You wont make ya goals if you dont try. Some aint easy some are.
Theres only one person who can make it happen....you.
Climb out of the hole mate. Its easy when you got a ladder of good people to help
19-04-2005 | 01:12 PM
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Less babe, PLEASE don't do anything silly, listen to wat Nics telling you she's been there, so have I, I know it seems impossible now, but you can get through it, honestly babe just keep talking to us, we want to help you.
No-one wants to see you do anything silly, and no-one is laughing at you or taking the piss out of you, a lot of us have been there, please please dont do anything silly.
No-one wants to see you do anything silly, and no-one is laughing at you or taking the piss out of you, a lot of us have been there, please please dont do anything silly.
19-04-2005 | 01:16 PM
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less you gotta understand depression is an ilness not a mood, you wont get better until you understand why or what has made you feel this way the state of the nhs mental health system in this country is dier mate i was in the position were i was atending a rehab clinic i had a pysio and an o.t therapist that both knew i was suffering from shock and post traumatic stress disorder as theyd seen it so many times befor, i was actually told i was failed by the system, my o.t was so desperate to help me she called somebody she knew higher in the chain the response is a lil shocking but if your as desperate as you say you are its the key to the door, basically they said to jump the cue you need to go into a+e at any hospital and tell them you wanna kill yasel so thiers your option upto you to help yourself lad i did 
19-04-2005 | 01:21 PM
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Chap, dont do anything silly,
If you can see a point for carrying on cos your feeling that bad, just imagine the impact on the people you will leave behind....
and there will be believe me, I nearly lost my mother this way.....
If the anti depressants aren't working for you, then go back to you GP and speak with him. Apparently, you have to go through quite a few different types before you find a set that work, its trial and error.
Ultimately long term you need to seek counciling, either through the NHS which would probably be a bit cack, or privately (do a search on the Yellow pages web site for Psychotherapists www.yell.com).
There are people out there who can help you. My mother tried to take her own life about 2 years ago due to depression a) if she did she would have had a massive negative impact on our lives b) she got some private counciling and is now pretty much got her life back on track.
Hang in there bud, and find the right people to talk too.
If you can see a point for carrying on cos your feeling that bad, just imagine the impact on the people you will leave behind....
and there will be believe me, I nearly lost my mother this way.....If the anti depressants aren't working for you, then go back to you GP and speak with him. Apparently, you have to go through quite a few different types before you find a set that work, its trial and error.
Ultimately long term you need to seek counciling, either through the NHS which would probably be a bit cack, or privately (do a search on the Yellow pages web site for Psychotherapists www.yell.com).
There are people out there who can help you. My mother tried to take her own life about 2 years ago due to depression a) if she did she would have had a massive negative impact on our lives b) she got some private counciling and is now pretty much got her life back on track.
Hang in there bud, and find the right people to talk too.
19-04-2005 | 01:24 PM
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Originally Posted by * Rudey *
less you gotta understand depression is an ilness not a mood, you wont get better until you understand why or what has made you feel this way the state of the nhs mental health system in this country is dier mate i was in the position were i was atending a rehab clinic i had a pysio and an o.t therapist that both knew i was suffering from shock and post traumatic stress disorder as theyd seen it so many times befor, i was actually told i was failed by the system, my o.t was so desperate to help me she called somebody she knew higher in the chain the response is a lil shocking but if your as desperate as you say you are its the key to the door, basically they said to jump the cue you need to go into a+e at any hospital and tell them you wanna kill yasel so thiers your option upto you to help yourself lad i did
Hang in there Less xxx
19-04-2005 | 01:26 PM
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having a mid life crisis
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I got nofasmily or freinds I can talk to
My fsamily not want to know couisns uncles auants etc,I was not good enough to be a keen.
Not spoke to em for years fucking bucnh of wankers anyway the lot of em
My fsamily not want to know couisns uncles auants etc,I was not good enough to be a keen.
Not spoke to em for years fucking bucnh of wankers anyway the lot of em
19-04-2005 | 01:42 PM
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Do something for yourself then, book something private like my mother did. Dont necessarly relay on the NHS as the single source of getting sorted.
And I can't believe there is no one out there, you are friends with and can confide in? i'm sure there is someone you get on with.
I would try and get out and about, rather than sitting at home.
Anyway best of luck mate, do something about it rather than being a 'victim of it'
And I can't believe there is no one out there, you are friends with and can confide in? i'm sure there is someone you get on with.
I would try and get out and about, rather than sitting at home.
Anyway best of luck mate, do something about it rather than being a 'victim of it'