Anonymous

wow brill read
shame i cant find the strenth to tell my life story
but reading other peep's probs makes mine look small

Ginge !

yeah deffo he best bit ofn advice for ya,,,, either that or get a lodger to move in the spare room then if hes sound you may have a fun, have more money and start to enjoy life


think its a shame when people aint able to enjoy life,,,, its sooo bad for ya and unless you crawl out that situation it will start to feel worse everyday EVEN THOUGH it aint changed

charlie luciano

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Mate I wouldn't know where to start and wouldn't know where to finish


For now onwards and upwards


Luciano

Ginge !

you are mate,,,,, in that case your a lost cause

Anonymous

Gets more expensive every year, personally i wouldnt like to start over as a first time buyer again now.

Graham S1

jeez, wouldn't know where to start, or where to finish. could probably do a few pages on just the stuff I remember straight away, without actually looking stuff up.

I've had soooo many ups and downs (mainly ups ), that it really wouldn't matter if I did fuck all for the next 30 years, as I've done enough in the first 30 to keep most people happy.

If this thread keeps going, might have to drag a few things out from the ol memory hole.

Graceland

I won't go into detail, But AlexF knows quite a lot about me and my life. But basically, life was pretty grim untill I met Adam in November 2005 But since then things have been on the up, and everything is getting better

Took me a long time to find the right man for me tho and to gain trust in anyone outside my immediate family, especially considering some of the things that happened to me in my earlier years But I met Adam and the rest is pretty much history.

I have the perfect job - something I have ALWAYS wanted to do from when i was a wee nipper. I have the perfect partner who I love to bits and think the world of


Thats me really. - not bad for a 23 year old numpty

Rod-Tarry

MADRod speaking.

Born 1 month after the war ended & remember rationing & very little material goods as a lad. Was a teenager during the incredible 60's & a member of a group during this period. When you lads think you invented drugs/sex you didnt .Had my first ride in a modified car in 1965 & its proved to be the most expensive move I ever made . have owned modded cars ever since.
Married in 1972 after a short whirlwind romance & the kids were born in 1978 & 1980 & we are still together after 34years . Built my own house in 1982/83 & dont recommend this too anyone, cant get back the time I was away from the kids when they were very young. Struck down with a serious illness in 1994 & they gave me 50/50 before the op to remove a 6" tumour. Off work for 15 months it changed my outlook on life & I decided to build myself a very fast car, whatever the cost, you cant take your money with you & I became very aware of that during the blackest days. Bought the Cossie in 1996 & in 2004 achieved my aim of owning the Worlds fastest Cossie.
Have seen my Daughter achieve an Honours degree & my son build up a successfull company. Thought my life was over in 1995 & so it all seems so good these days. Will retire in March 2007 with a golden handshake & that should be it. I cant say too much at the mo but ive new irons in the fire & im sure you will all hear about it soon.

Merry Chribo All
Rod

Anonymous

After reading aswell I find it hard to place the events which happened by year and dates as soo much has gone past!

Some of us just need a small pinch to makes us realise we are alive!

Biggs

biscuittin

jesus stu you had it hard , glad to here all is going right .
makes my life seam boaring
but here goes
was born in 1975
not much happened until i was 17 when my mum killed her self , left a note blaming me and a few other things gong on in her head .
i was a git as a teen so maybe i just pushed her over the edge ???

passed driving test after 3 weeks of lessons then 3 weeks later wrote dads car off
treated women like crap for a while messing them around ( my mums fault not sure )
around 21 got banned for getting 12 points on my license ( totting up for speeding on bikes & cars )
met a woman when i was 20 married her when i was 28 ( still cheating on her , she never found out ) not bragging
got devorced 2 years ago after i meet a lads sister i work with ( only spoke to her 3 times ) , yep must be mad , but there wsa just something about her
still with her and being a good boy , now have a baby boy who 8 months old .love them both to pieces
life is just geting better , have a lot of friends who mean alot to me
over the cause of my driving carrier 14 years wrote off about 6 cars ( 2 where cossie's and a few bike's )
still here all body parts where they should be , got my health family and friends and another cossie
i all ways get told i'm far to happy most of the time , but why let life get you down , we are i only here once so enjoy it
all the best for 2007 to you all

Lee Reynolds

Good thread stu i must say. You have told me about your past before...youve come along way mate

Some other good reads too....nice to get to know people you havent met a little better.

Heres me:

Born in 1978. Came very close apparantly to not being here as it was touch and go for a few months after birth.
I was pretty quiet at school but always held my own, had a good size circle of close friends and played cricket for my local village from age 12 to 15 and also competed in a few Shotokan sport(semi contact) karate comps.

Left school in 1993 with just about no results. I was ok at school but didnt try in the exams as i just wasn't interested. From a young age i ALWAYS wanted to be a builder....and knew i didnt need school quals for this.

Technical college time as an apprectice bricklayer:
First year i flew through my work, both practical and theory. Got straight A's. I was also awarded 'Student making the best progress on any construction course' award and then i competed in the yorkshire under 17's catagory for brickwork and came first.
Second year again i knuckled down and got on with things learning more brickwork...yet at work we never did any brickwork really...this is where i learned many aspects of the building trade. Once again, i was awarded 'student of the year' in construction, but i also won the 'student making the best progress on ANY course at Barnsley college...and its a big college! Wow was parents proud....i was in the local rag and everything. I then competed in the senior catagory of the yorkshire brickwork skills competition and again took first place

I then went on to do my thrid advanced year at college and sailed through that.

At 19 and finished at college i left where i worked and went self employed. I threw myself in at the deepend and went for it...and succeeded. I was earning good money at this age. The only thing that was lost is i was asked to compete for yorkshire...but i had lost interest having met a girl i was spending lots of time with and working hard. Sad really as the organiser for the uk skill olyimpics phoned me and begged me to go as he felt id win easy and be competing for England in OZ....Why didnt i go

Anyways, things were shit with the girlfriend so My friend, a workmate and i sold our cars, booked our tickets and buggered off to OZ in 2000 at age 20 to find work. We were sadly let down as the olympic village in Sydney had just been built so all jobs for brickire were taken up by the people who had worked on the village. After 6 weeks of partying, we ran out of money and came home....
Still earning good money when i came home, i hit the beer and nights out big style, but also the E's and the Coke. My moods were shocking looking back now but at the time i was enjoying life to the full. At 23, i bought my first Escort cosworth for 16k, as i still ived at home so had plenty of cash. I loved it to bits and spent more time and money on that than the beer and nasties....lol. Went back to Oz with my mate again and partied and travelled a bit lol...didnt go to work this time! Got totally off the shit and stuck to beer....(and still do) Then the best part of my life came,

at 24 i met Lindsay in a bar in town. Straight away we hit it off and after iirc 2 months we were engaged we got married the year later(2.5 years ago) and are as happy as ever. We have NEVER fallen out. Yes we sometimes disagree on things but dont argue. I have never heard Lindsay shout. We are both 28, on our third house which is a 4 bed, 3 bath, detached and detached garage...And now we have less than two weeks to go and our baby is due to be born. Ive been in Business now for 6 months and it is doing really well,,,better than expected and things are looking very good...and TBH im waiting for a baloon to burst. I thought it had earlier this year when Dad got diagnosed with Prostate cancer, but things look good and he seems to be on the mend


Hope ive not bored you

Ginge !

lee this is ment to be a depressing thread,,,, take all your good fortune and happy life and fook off


you must have had a hampster die or have you credit card cloned something ,,,,,,, please



good news on the baby,,,,, hope ypu atleast get a baby who stays awake all night and sleeps during the day

c.h.r.i.s

Seems like youve really turned your life around stu. Well done


well i havent got much compared to most of you, as im only 17 at the end of the month.

Had a pretty good life so far, Lost my Grandad in march 2003 which has been the only majour low point so far

Started high school in 2000 and went downhill towards my last year, where i pulled myself together and got the GCSE grades i wanted

Ive been at BAE Systems 3 months today doing an apprenticeship in aerospace engineering, so looks like i will have a good career. want to go into F1 once im fully qualified and have some experience behind me

Got an ace group of friends


Been with girlfriend for neally 2 months now known her for about 2 years and never felt better

Bring on the rest of my life, i know its not going to be easy but ill take it as it comes

Merry Christmas all



Chris

Lee Reynolds

like you i like to look at the better things in life. Ive not mentioned the bad stuff on purpose lol. Shit like ex cheating on me and totally destroying my confidence which to ages to restore... and other crap like.. prefer to remember the nice things....

Oh and BTW its not good 'fortune'...its hard work

Ginge !

thank fook it wasnt all easy for ya,,,, was about to drive round yours and smear dog poo on your door handles


you have done ok gotta be said and you are doing REALLY well and gonna be a family


best thing in my life is my little brat cause when ever i feel down she will always come over to me and give me a hug and try to help me cheer up saying the words,,,,,,

" daddy,,,,,,,,,smiling not crying",,,,,

im not a soppy fooker but a 3 year old doing that is something that you cant explain

aduz

well to cut a long story short..

high's....birth of my daughter

low's....going to prison and my ex disappearing with my daughter

Ginge !

that is deffo a high and low point !!!!!

do you get to see her now ?,,, sory to hear either way

aduz

ive not seen her in 3 years mate

Ginge !

thats shite mate


i know it dont mean much now but ALWAYS remember that in the future she WILL come looking for you !!!!


ive got a wierd situation with a ex partner and i dont get to see my first kid due to her stopping me and then i heard its cause its not my kid ect and i got it loads of shite when we split,, got done for not adhering to a court order,,,,, got a injuction not allowing me near her due to all of her lies and the old bill and judges being wankers and thinking cause they would like to fuck her then shes gonna be telling the truth blah blah blah


anyway after spending LOADS of cash and LOTS MORE hassle and even though ive got half custody i STILL got screwed over seeing her every week ect i decided rather than be the baby sitter and jump to see my child i done the VERY hard desision of not playing the cunt and wait for my child to get older and look for me,,,, ive never stoped her trust fund and even though i dont go round there to see her at christmas ect and i DO feel a cunt i just dont think its fair to her OR my family and i

its a cunt mate and it hurts like shite but it WILL make that time she come to see you,,,, not on her mums terms but her choice,,,,, you will then beable to make up the time and show her what the person you NOW are !!!


the only thing i am regretting is knowing when its time to explain to Elise she MAY have a sister 3 years older

and the REAL hard part,,,,,, the fact that Elises mum is a old mate of her older sisters mum from school ( but we do live in a small world !)


keep ya chin up and plan her future even though she aint there !!!

Steven_RW

Passed driving test when 17

Bought Escort Estate from Dads company aged 17 - lowered it, stuck big brakes on it, stripped it to empty inside - drove everywhere like a mad man

It got stolen and recovered - sold it

Bought grey Rsturbo at 18-19 years old - modified it as much as I could with near enough no cash

did 14.51 down the 1/4 mile with 165 bhp at wheels

Did 149.9 mph on 165 at the wheels

did 1min 3.42 seconds round knockhill

Split up with gf whilst traveling, sold Rsturbo to pay back ex-gf

Came home - got job - worked hard - managed to get permenant contract (4 years ago now) bought tommi mak evo 6.

Picked it up, drove onto the m'way slip round and took it straight round to 7,500 in fifth instantly hitting the baps on every change.

Did an 8:43 on my first lap of the nurburgring 3 up in the damp

Did 8:16.67 with rainbird in the car chasing a porsche

hit the baps on every change once the car was warm and never saw more than 95 miles to a tank

sold the evo

bought a house

2 years later ( now ) looking to buy bmw m3, stick cage in it and take back to the roads like a total psycho again.

Many other things happened in all this time, but W.O.T., limiter (aka baps) and V-max lead to laps times, and therefore they take priority

RW

SPADGE

Jesus if i was to write about my 41 years of life i would take the whole bandwidth allocated to PF and Steven Spielberg would find it far fetched
So i'll stick to just my low and high points!

The lowest point of my entire life seeing my son born 3 months early on 28/10/03 weighing just 1lb 13oz's and fighting for his life for 3 months in hospital



The highest point of my life is every single minute of every single day that i spend with him as it could have easily have been all so different

Anonymous

Fucking hell, he is TINY!

Must have scared the fucking shit out of you both!


Doing well now by the looks of it, congrats

Andy_R

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Do I Don’t I? Where do I begin?

I pretty much sailed through life until around Jan 2001, until then I was fit & healthy at the top of my profession.
Engaged to be married and with the girl of my dreams & head over heels in love.

I worked hard during the week and played even harder at weekends and holidays.
Weekends typically consisted of trips to our caravan by the coast and time spent mainly windsurfing, wakeboarding, water ski-ing & playing on our jet-ski’s.
Holidays would typically include a couple of week long snowboarding trips a year & a couple of weeks in the sun.

Truly a fortunate position to have been in.

I choose January 2001 as the start date as up and till then I felt challenged in my Job as Financial Adviser, I was consistently rated in the upper half of the top 10 performers within the company, year on year for 5+ years. This brought with it huge financial benefits.

And then what happened……..

I needed a challenge ……Around March 2001 I spoke to another company who was keen for me to go work with them……I handed in my notice ...to find out 3 days later that everyone in the job I’d worked in for the past 9 years was being made redundant. On the upside I had a job with good salary & benefits but in effect I’d waved goodbye to around Ł50k in redundancy…oocha!

I settle well in my new job, downside is I could be spending up to 16 hours a day working. Coming home tired communication between me and my fiancé sufferd.

She’s at the time was doing a degree in design and busy with that and slowly we began to drift apart.
June and the pressure turns up a few notches, what with the end of term course work, deadlines to be completed etc etc.
Mean while. I’m as I see it out grafting my ass off and coming home to a house that needs a tidy, no dinner prepared etc etc.

Ok back to your parent’s house I suggest, feeling taken for granted. It’s taken the wrong way and the shit hits the fan…or so I thought….

That was a walk in the park compared with what was to follow.

It’s a bright summer’s day in July & I’m out on my motorbike with 6 other mates. We’re making good pace over some tight twisty B roads. We are in the middle of nowhere, a very remote area.

And then……………….

I awake 3 days later in the high dependency unit of a Glasgow hospital. A motorist travelling towards me had lost control of his car and hit me head on.

I’d undergone 9 hours surgery to reconstruct breakages to my bones(hand’s arms’s leg shoulders etc…you get the picture). Leg injuries were so severe that it was highly unlikely that I’d walk again.

I remember thinking “well that may well be your opinion but I’m far to young & have far to much to accomplish…..im not taking that….I will walk again”

Turns out that I’d severed my femoral artery in the accident, remember how remote the location was……WELL a Canadian Orthopaedic surgeon who was on holidays happened to pass within min’s of the accident happening.
Apparently you have 5 min’s max with this sort of injury before you bleed to death.
He stabelised me until the air ambulance arrived. How Fortunate was I!!!!

So months & months of intensive physio and im walking with crutches I’m out of hospital staying with my family. A 24/7 care case for them.

At around the 9 month stage my surgeon suggests that I see a shrink as in his opinion the psychological effects of the accident are taking there toll. One thing leads to another and I’m diagnosed as suffering from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) My employers realising the gravity of my accident “let me go” not that I’d been entitled to sick pay. I’d lost everything but my life!

My world, my life had collapsed all around me.

The challenge I felt I needed in January 2001…….ended up being a challenge and a half!

Jumping forward to today. Over 5years of recovery later and physically I’m recovered/ing well. I’m currently training every 2nd day after my 4th and final operations earlier this year. Im making good progress.

Mentally & emotionally I’ve learned SO SO much about how I (we) work as human beings. I promised myself that I wasn’t going to hide the fact that I suffer from and have suffered from mental illness(If it can happen to me it can happen to anyone)

If by being vocal about how mental illness has & currently does effect me, makes it that little bit easier for another person, who may be suffering similar elements of a mental illness to feel less isolated. Then it can only be a good thing.

2006 has seen me achieve many goals including RS Track days at Croft & Donnington. A couple of trips driving the Nurburgring, (a challenge due to increased anxiety when close to motorbike's) these goals I’d set myself 3 or so years back, at a time where I was unsure that i'd regain the confidence to drive again.

This summer I moved into my own home and regained elements of independence again

Next major goal is attaining the sort of level of fitness that once came so easily.

Snowboarding will recommence this winter.

Next spring/summer I aim to be fit enough to be back out on the water.


Im still very much in recovery at the moment.
I find it difficult to see the woods form the trees at times. However the periods when im down are becoming less and less frequent.

Slowly Im shifting my thought’s from what has passed, towards……The future.

My Future & where I want to go. Roll on 2007

stevenebm

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god sake andy.just puts it in to perspective how lucky some of us are when you read stories like yours heres a bit of my life
till i was 16 growing up in springside if you dont know it wasnt easy.saw things that will haunt me forever.people injecting herion etc.my uncle was well known in the village so didnt really get any hassle from folk but it was him that gave me the most hassle out the lot.wanting me to do errins for him.like watch his kids while he would be out dealing and im certain but will never know i think he had killed a few folk with the mess i saw him in a few times.covered in blood etc.i wasnt complaining cos at 16 he was giving me lots of cash.i never touched drugs tho which was funny as all my mates were.things changed but when i managed to get an apprentiship as an electrician.by working i saw less and less of my uncle till finally he dissapered.
from 16 till 19 i was quiet and just interested in cars.
19-22.met my first girlfriend.how sad eh.was with her for two years then i find out she was messing my about with her ex.really messed me up as she was there for me when my grandad died and he was a big part of my life.still think about him to this day.
im now 23 and working for a whisky factory in glasgow with good wage,have met the perfect girl and we are planning to get a house next year and talked about kids etc
so all is good in my life and to this day we dont know where my uncle is and i couldnt care less if i dont see him again.bad to say but life is so much better without his hassle.thanks for reading folks

GARETH T

SPADGE


spadge i cant believe thats your son now time in flying by

Stu @ M Developments

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This is now a great topic people, congratulations and thanks to all of you who have contributed so far, its hard to open up to strangers, but gives a great insight into teh people behind teh keyboards when you do so..

Best of luck to all of you for the future.

BlueSmoke

Bloody hell Stu, interesting read man. You mentioned something to me a while ago about your bad old days when we were pissed. You're a top bloke now mate and so glad you beat those demons.

As for drug addiction, I know all about that, and to come back and be where you are today is a true testament to your character pal.

BlueSmoke

Oh and just to add, anyone who wants to know anything about my life just needs to go to the search page and search all posts by DogSmoke

Anonymous

Anonymous

Andy_R, fair fucking play mate for being so open about the mental illness, if more people could do the same then maybe there wouldnt be the stigma attached to it that there currently is, sadly mental health is just not something the average member of the public has ANY understanding of, and like most things in life, peopel are scared of what they dont understand.

All estimates ive ever seen estimate upwards of 20% of people suffering from some form of serious mental health issue at some point in there life, so its nowhere hear as unusual as some people would think!

Good luck with wherever you go from here, personally I dont have any doubt that whatever path you take you will end up at the top of what you are doing, just like with Stu, real strength of character ALWAYS comes through in the end mate

Clare

My High Points:
1989 My little Sister was born, I was 10 years old
1992 I joined a Drama School & over a period of 4 years starred in Musicals, Plays & did some TV work. Very happy high times in my life.
1996 Quit Drama School on request from my Parents to concentrate on Exams, did pretty well to everyones surprise as concentration was a huge issue. My Parents were very proud of me
1997 I passed my Driving Test aged 17
1999 I got my first house aged 19
2004 I got my first Cossie aged 24
2005 Along with Steve & Gemma Barrett we organised the first ever Beds RS Track Day at Bedford Autodrome
2005 Bought my current house aged 25, the one i´d been working up to.
2006 My Sister passed all her GCSEs with flying colours. So proud of her.

Ive tried several times to list out the Low points in my life, not that there have been lots, its just the things that have happened have left deep mental scars but when I write them down they seem trivial compared to what some people have been through, it is also a not very nice reminder of how fucked up I am
So the only bad points I feel comfortable listing here are the physical events if that makes sense.
In 2004 I was diagnosed with skin cancer, but after major surgery on my face I have had the all clear for 2 years now.
I thought this was the hardest thing i´d ever have to go through in my life but sadly earlier this year I was involved in a car crash which left me with 2 crushed vertabrae in my spine.
After a week in Marbella hospital, I spent a month of total immobilisation, then a further 4 months in a full back brace with an expectation of 1 more year until the pain subsides and I can lead a normal life again.
However, more recently i´ve been told I have further injuries to my lumber spine that went undiscovered so I have an MRI scan due in 2 weeks which should give me an idea on time scales until life is fully back to normal.
Since the accident I sometimes wake up really positive and swear to live each day as if it were my last, have as much fun as possible and never grow up, but sadly these days are equal in number to the days I spend in a very black hole. After reading how other people have overcome serious injury on here, I live in hope that eventually in time the good days will outweigh the bad.

Jemma

xxxx

Jemma

Just read through this again properly, my word have you been through a lot and so have a few more of you.
I hope you all are fine and recover asap if you havent already.
I think you are all soo brave and our my inspiration!

carlo

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Stu good to hear everythings going ok now fella

i was born on the 22/09/1979 had a good childhood my mum and dad split when i was 10 gutted at the time but i guess looking at it now it was for the best no real complaints..
At the age of 16(1996) i got my first dream job as apprentice panel beater loved it getting on gr8..
Then on the 19/03/1998 my best mate came round on his mototbike & took me for a run BIG MISTAKE he was showing off he was 18 as well showing off he overtook 3 cars & we hit the car coming head on at excess of 80mph..i was in intensive care on life support for 4 weeks then when i started breathing for myself i got moved to glasgows royal infermary i spent the next 7 months there.i sufferd a broken collar bone,pelvis,right leg,degloved hip,degloved ancle,shatterd right elbow & loads of internal injurys..i was full of metal & had to learn how to walk again & so on...3 years later i got all the metal work taken out (still not back at work bye this point) then a year later i met my girlfriend on a boys holiday in ibiza & been going strong ever scince.in the middle of all this i got a insurance claim & bought my dream car the escort cosworth..i got a job at bmw & been working there ever scince with no pain or setbacks..(TOUCH WOOD) sorry about the long read but i read all yours

Anonymous

My life story till present day.

..mostly banned

Charlie Chalk

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Not much to report


Born 1984


Called Radleigh


Got expelled from school

Had a Job While in School

Left that and became a trainee Pastry Chef

Some bitch screwed me over, causing me to leave the job ( I walked out)

shame, As I loved that job, and it payes more than what I earn now

Joined the RAF in November 2001

Became a cunt almost straight after that day...

2002, I bought my first car.. My Series 2

That got me into the 'RS' scene, Also got to know a few people with RS's on and around base...

Drove my First Cossie (stage 3 2wd) Fucking loved it, So that made me want RWD... (hence my S2 going RWD now)

Late 2002

Bloke I worked with, Complete cunt tried to make me look a cunt to often, I took it into my own hands and ended up being banged up in nick for 30 days

I also met Greig (Big wig 074) of here and that got me into PF

Also got me to know a few others... Some good mates I have off here

2003 - 2006


Not alot more after that.. Still cause shit in work, Some times I actually think I have a problem, Its like an addiction

Mid this year I went to the Falkland Islands

Spent 4 month out there

Very bleek.. but a big eye opener!


Now

Not alot... I just plod on with life and take what evers next as it comes


Single too by the way

saff_cossie

Very interesting read Stu and a commendable starting post. Also well done to the others who have posted.

One thing I noticed though, the title mentions high's and lows and there doesnt seem to be a lot of highs, mainly lows.

Reading it certainly does put your own life into perspective but in saying that one persons mole hill is anothers mountain.

I appear to have a lived a very stable life by all accounts it seems though.

Had a fairly strict up bringing, both parents were in education. Went from school to college, then took a year out to work out what I wanted to do. Decided uni was for me, applied and was accepted. Worked hard for 4 years and met my g/f during my time there.

My biggest gremlin was flying which I managed to get over and I will always be grateful for getting over that at 20 and not 50. I now fly most months to various cities around Australia for work and pleasure.

Have only had 1 close death and couple of distant deaths in the family during my time so very fortunate there.

Mum and dad are still together and enjoying life. Brother found the error of his ways and became a fully qualified carpenter.

Have achieved a lot more than I have mentioned but certainly does sound tame.

Again, well done to all who have posted.

Charlie Chalk

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Also.. Nice to know I got you thinking to do this post

Good read