i reckon somethings up in my head or something i cant sleep, concentrate, i have massive mood swings, going from my normal self, which is usually really good and happy, to angry swing for the first person i see for no reason kind of mood, to wanting to cry all within 5 mins, i've put on loads of weight in the last few months (and i fucking hate that! . never mind) . I got this really sharp stabbing pain in the top/back of my head for a few weeks a while back, a couple of times a day it would really hurt and make me physically weak. thats stopped now though.

I've Had a shit year so far and i reckon its caught up with me. everything i do seems to get knocked back. work, home, love life , play. example.

Work has declined for everyone i know that, but i'm on 2 and 3 day weeks now. thats less than £200 a week sometimes.
My mom fucked off from my dad at the start of the year leaving him gutted so i had to pick up the pieces for him. he's alot better now but that still leaves a taste after 24 years of marriage, she fucks off with another bloke and a ready made setup and leaves him with fuck all. i'll never understand. he doesn't drink, smoke, gamble, never beat her up. nothing.
got my car setup at nms a few months ago spent a fortune on it tbh but i wanted it right so i could enjoy it for the summer. i ate right into my savings, 2 days later i broke my gearbox, so i got a new one, next week my clutch goes.
Decide to go back to the gym to shift this extra 2 stone thats apperred since christmas. go for 2 weeks then put my back moving wagon tyres at work. i can hardly lie flat some nights. and have to sleep sitting up. (not the most restful sleep!)
Love life, i dont even know where to start with that. My missus ring me up in tears saying she might have an std. i dont play around so it weren't from me. she rings me back 3 days later saying it was "alright it was just thrush". i tell her she cant fuck around like that and its not alright cos and std is a big thing to bring into a "closed" relationship. so that leaves me looking a right c**t. so i tell her to sling her hook. now she's sorry and is chewing at me to get back with her.

i fancy a fresh break but dont even have enough cash to do so or know where to go. i need to get away and get back to australia i think. get there at least for a long break, remind me of my travels a few years ago . i cant work there legally though thats the only problem. just thinking "out loud" fuck. does anyone fancy a ready made life? you can have mine i'll swap.

i love passionford. i know no-one, its open 24 hours and i feel...well honestly not alot better. Thanks for reading

 

awww sory to hear all that geez.life can be s**t but im sure it will get better,go take everythink one step at a time at hopefully everythink will work out for the best,but get your back looked at,i done mine in a few years back on motocross and wish i had, had some advice on what to do as now it gets realy bad from hardly nothink, good luck m8

 

Mate lifes a journey hi's and lows, getting through the lows can make you a lot better person.

I know that sounds crap, but its true.

 

Hang in there mate things will get better

 

i forgot to add My grandad has cancer of the colon and pancreas. They diagnosed him 2 weeks ago and wont operate. theres no point aparently. My nan is also really ill so they now have people in to look after them both. i feel really bad for them. once one goes, the other will too. .

Your right its a journey. a shit one at that this year. its really hard to stay positive when you just keep getting knocked back again and again. i was doing fine on my own until the missus came along. then loads of shit started with ex's etc. the above one was just the last "episode". i think once i let my guard down it all got to me.

i used to go for a spin and sort my head but i havent been able to do that for weeks and weeks, cos i cant afford a clutch its just laughable.

 

Ill swap...

Could be worse.

I have not had a job since I got laid off in december. Was entitled to JSA for 6 months now I cant get fuck all as my partner earns too much "apparently" which is only £650. Not entitled to any help with rent/council tax etc

I feel exactly the same as you do in the first 4 lines.

It will get better though, despite doing 4 years at uni I haven't been able to get a job and I am now going back to college in September to do an MOD apprenticeship. Just have to hold out until then and things will get better. Things happen for a reason and it will sort itself out.

 

feel for you mate i think i'v only had a very small snippet of good luck in my life like meeting my now misses but she did something that made me feel mugged off a little and i still struggle to forgive her but i'm getting there.

and 2 weeks i got laid off cos the MD just didn't like me not for work reasons, thats after putting up with endless weeks of this bloke doing his best to wind me up take the piss and stress me out to a point i felt ill and i nearly collapsed, i also started to get pains in my chest and me and the misses fell out on many occasions from this MD's attitude towards me causing stress in my home life aswell, to top it all off i had my car written off last wed by some nob reading his paper work whilst driving and plowed into the back of me, tbh the list just goes on but i won't bore you or make you feel worse.

all i can say is it has too get better at some point mate so try and keep that smile on your face.

i decided whilst i'm not working and i'v got this courtesy car thats ace on fuel i'd go fishing and i enjoyed every minute sitting there in the sunshine it made me think that it's not all that bad .................................................. ..................
then this pikey family turned up next to my peg fished right where i was, throwing there lines across mine shouting there heads off and blasting music out of the cars then i realised there is actually scum like this i just couldn't believe what i was seeing when his son cast his line right where i was fishing just cos i caught summit nice i just gave up cos i was enjoying the place too much.

 

did you get that pain at the back of your head too?

i was abit worried, but didnt get it looked at i just carried on with it. The only reason i havent been completly laid off is cos i work for family. hence the moving tryes round the yard, just for something to do.

 

without sounding harsh mate, it makes me feel better knowing theres other people there too. its all good.

 

No just the whole tired but not able to go to sleep, really snappy, very grumpy, feeling really shit.

 

oh ok .

Maybe i should have got it checked out then . bit late i spose.

 

yea i just feel for the countless people that must be taking there own lives at the moment , i bet we aren't even the worst atleast we don't have mortgages and kids to worry about but doesn't mean we aren't getting a hard time atm.

and no probs i knew it would make you feel a bit better knowing your not the only one in the same boat, my saviour is going to college to get my sparky papers that i'v needed for the past 18 months, then i will never have to worry hopefully, but atleast i'll never have to answer to anyone again unlike my last job,

the only thing i'v gotta think about now is how i'm gunna be ready for my misses 21st in aug and how i'm gunna keep a car and my head above water for the next 2-3 years i'm in college

 

I have a 20 month old to support also. But like Burnzy said it could be alot worse.

Also if she had an STD you are definately better off without her

 

If you are a bird, thats all perfectly normal

 

thats the thing she didn't, but she was like "oh its ok, its not an std, we can go back to how it was again now, i can trust you again" FUCK OFF. i dont play around i'm not like that.

and i'm so glad i dont have any kids etc. i'd be a liability to them the way i am. i struggle to put a key in the front door some days i stand there in a daze looking at it.

 

Not last time i checked, thats whats worrying me you see

 

yea very true

 

When my missus goes to work, me and him look after each other.

 

I'm off to bed,


and can i publicly thank scoobypete the Man is an Absolute Gentleman. He's offered me a clutch, for free so i can get my car back on the road. Thank you so much.

 

not being funny but if she knew she wasn't fooling around then she would of blamed you straight off no questions asked i no i would if i thought i had picked up an STD and i had been faithfull which i'll gladly say i always have been, some people you don't no you better off without till something like this happens,

but like i always say if they cheat on you your worth more than to be treated as second best, so they are better off out on their arse, if i ever found out a girlfriend had cheated on my i tell them to walk and never look back on it cos i no i'm worth more and deserve to be with someone with more morels and respect for me, i hope you see it the same way too

 

With your Ex-that sounds like good luck to me-she didn't respect you enough to have a proper relationship-not easy but move ob there and count your blessings-ya coulda found this out after havin 2 kids with her-that'd suck worse than knowing now

With your parents....thats up to them I mean you can't really get in the middle...just because you disagree with your mothers choices shes not gonna stop bein your mother you can only try to supprot BOTH of them in a rough period in their lives

Your grandparents is a tough thing to hear, count yourself lucky your around to comfort them and say goodbye....its all you can do in this situation( I was in rural Oz when my grandad became ill--he rang me and said not to come home cos it wouldn't change things and turned out I wouldn't have been home in time)at least you can spend some time with both of them

With RE: to work-----I've been outta work since september last year gettin bits and pieces as I go by. There's a lot of people in the same boat ie finding it tough at the moment but the economic situation is making the majority of 20-30 yr olds passengers IMO because we're used to working hard and achieving things not working hard and becoming un-employed. You probably can't do much, except keep on keeping on, on that front

Try not to let it all get you down so much

Not much help I know

Just seen you got an offer of help with the car- your luck is turning now

 

sounds like a combination of mild depression and stress.

The symptoms you initially described are pretty much classic mild depression. comfort eating too???

stress can lead to sharp neck and shoulder pains as your muscles get knackered from constantly being tensed. For most people its mainly aches and cramps in the neck and shoulders.

worth getting a check up at docs and trying to increase your activity each day. You need a check up because if its that crippling pain that you feel weak then it might be something else especially as youve done your back in so need to look after your spine to be safe!

 

Cheers for all the comments.
Dreamer i was in aus too when my other grandad was very ill. my family said the same. he was that high on tablets he didn't even know where he was so me being there wouldn't have helped. Scoobypete is anabsolute gent. i really wasn't expecting that. Its very humbling

Warren i dunno. i think i need to see the doc. the comfort eating thing sounds about right lol. i have alot of snacks now, probably 1 meal a day. whereas before it was 2 set meals and grab something on the go in the middle of the day.

 

sell your car and go travelling. I swear everyone thinks the only place to go to is Australia. You can work in shit loads of countries in the EU. Work in Canada or New Zealand for a year. Or just travel a cheaper country. Argentina or somewhere, or the band wagon Thailand

 

 

i did thailand, hong kong and australia. i ran out of money in aus though and didn't see alot of it. if iwent back i'd amke sure i saw some proper country, or outback lol, and do new zealand too.