Hi Adela

I do understand and appreciate your concerns and I will not dispute them. But I would like to explain why.

You are aware for the last few weeks I have been extremely uncertain on what my future will be with the TTA. I also believe that the decision has already been made that shortly after my review, I will be dismissed. It is no coincidence that my conduct is slipping the closer my review gets as I have resigned myself to the fact that it is a very real possibility that I will no longer have a future with the TTA after Monday and there appears to be nothing I can do to prevent it. As a result, I am very unhappy and have been so for many weeks now as I no longer have confidence in a stable future.

There are many things I have observed over the last couple of month that help support my suspicions. Team members are being assigned new projects to work on and not myself. Basic day to day work seems to have tailed off to the point where I struggle to find work to do. Constant e-mails concerning my work which all appear to be just a method of building up a case for my dismissal. A temp has been hired, despite the fact that I feel there has not been a substantial increase in the workload to warrant it and from which he has regularly commented on having nothing to do. There has been no discussion on any coaching or training to aid me in improving. The continuing monitoring and fixed hours despite that for two months there was a dramatic improvement on both these areas. In conversations Jeff and yourself it he has been suggested that I am no longer wanted on the team. Even the body language I receive from yourself and Jeff has contributed to my current opinion.

I always enjoyed my work and developed a passion for it. But over the last few months the atmosphere has become almost oppressive. Where even the smallest mistake is harshly punished even if it was a request for advice or guidance. This has let me isolate myself and I have lost any confidence I might have had in my abilities. How am I meant to have confidence in myself when even you have admitted that you do not trust me? I also believe that, quite to my surprise, you have begun to find me intimidating, hence the constant emails rather than verbal communication. It even appears to be the general consensus of members of the team I will not have a job after Monday.

I hope be proven wrong on this. But my own suspicions or be it paranoia has left me in a position where my own mental health is declining rapidly and lacking in any enthusiasm to make an effort. Once again I find myself sleeping on average 3 hours a night. Facing the shame of telling my mother and father that my job they were so proud of me getting now appears to be coming to an end. Having to explain to Friends why I can not make a financial commitment on buying a car and having to continue to rely on them for lifts to car meetings and motor shows as I don’t believe I will have a job after Monday. I believe the only reason I still have one now is because you are restricted to procedure.

Despite the improvement made since my last reviews I feel that nothing will be taken into account. I even feel that you all have just given up on me and this has led me to give up also.

I hope you understand my feelings on this.

Stu

I always enjoyed my work and developed a passion for it. But over the last few months the atmosphere has become almost oppressive. Where even the smallest mistake is harshly punished even if it was a request for advice or guidance. This has let me isolate myself and I have lost any confidence I might have had in my abilities. How am I meant to have confidence in myself when even you have admitted that you do not trust me?

Hi Stuart

Thank you for emailing me to explain how you feel.

In terms of your performance and other aspects of the email, I think we should discuss these things on Monday. I want to reassure you that everything which has occurred since your last review (both positive and negative) will be taken into account and that the meeting we are having on Monday is intended to be a discussion.

In terms of procedure, as I have said to you on several occasions before, no decisions have been made regarding what will happen after the meeting being held on Monday. As I have also said neither Jeff or I are responsible for taking any decisions. On Monday we will meet and discuss how you have progressed since your 3 Month Probation Review Meeting and I will recommend whether or not I think you have met the required standards. Once we have met, the papers from the review meeting will be sent through to HR who will do a report based on this and all of the other review meetings we have had. HR will present this to ******** who will make a decision on how to progress. As I have said before, please speak with HR if you want some advice in these matters as they are there to support all employees.

In your email you say that you have not been sleeping and are unwell because of this. I really think that you should speak to your doctor about any issues you have like this so please try and get an appointment with them – as I have said previously if you are ever unwell in any way you can visit your doctor during working hours if necessary. HR can also provide support, as can the confidential advice line I mentioned to you before, here is the number again: Care First Welfare 0800 631136

As always you know that I am here to help you with anything you need, so please ask.

Thanks

Adela