FAO KA ZETEC!!!!
#41
Originally Posted by KA ZETEC
I see a shrink twice a month now
seriously though I'm not really getting anywhere with the shrink as i can't relate to him on that level where I can talk about my deepest problems.
With loved ones and close friends you can.
Just happens that the couple who are going to help me, her partner suffers from similar problems but is 10 years down the road in dealing with them.
So I can get more care and advice from them. Also one of thier mates is a shrink as well so i can get risk free independant professional advice.
#42
cool how did all start if you dont mind me asking mate, mine was from my bike accident and having 9 months in hospital, 7 ops shortest op was 5 hrs long , 5 blood transfusions
#43
Mine was my mothers death when i was 11.
For some reason i decided to repress all pain and fear rather than deal with it. So 15 years down the road its all built up and eventually exploded.
A lot of my experineces in the Forces haven't helped, but theve just accelerated it, so it was always going to happen at some stage.
seen a few nasty things in the Forces as well, but thats not for this forum
Just trying to work out the links between all the fears and there affect on why i do things eg
I've discovered I'm claustrophobic (and work in a submarine ).
This was caused by an incident where i was working in a confined space and a small fire broke out. When trying to esacpe my trouser leg caught on something and wouldn't come free so i panicked thinking i'd burn to death. Hence my claustrophobia.
Also that lead to the fear of fire, but i managed to deal with that myself by deliberate repeated exposure by volunteering for advanced Fire fighting courses. At the time i didn't know thats why i volunteered. Just your inner minds way of recognising something was wrong and trying to deal with it when conciously you won't.
Thats just one of the minor experiences i've had, hence why i can talk candidly about it. Theres some stuff I'm still not ready to talk about and deal with.
Just gonna take a long time thats all.
For some reason i decided to repress all pain and fear rather than deal with it. So 15 years down the road its all built up and eventually exploded.
A lot of my experineces in the Forces haven't helped, but theve just accelerated it, so it was always going to happen at some stage.
seen a few nasty things in the Forces as well, but thats not for this forum
Just trying to work out the links between all the fears and there affect on why i do things eg
I've discovered I'm claustrophobic (and work in a submarine ).
This was caused by an incident where i was working in a confined space and a small fire broke out. When trying to esacpe my trouser leg caught on something and wouldn't come free so i panicked thinking i'd burn to death. Hence my claustrophobia.
Also that lead to the fear of fire, but i managed to deal with that myself by deliberate repeated exposure by volunteering for advanced Fire fighting courses. At the time i didn't know thats why i volunteered. Just your inner minds way of recognising something was wrong and trying to deal with it when conciously you won't.
Thats just one of the minor experiences i've had, hence why i can talk candidly about it. Theres some stuff I'm still not ready to talk about and deal with.
Just gonna take a long time thats all.
#45
Originally Posted by KA ZETEC
Just rememeber true good mates will always stick by your side
I just didn't know when to ask for help incase it hurt them. But sometimes to help others you have to help yourself.
Thats why i need to get an official civvy shrink to care for me and diagnose my problems as the Navy shrink has to balance my needs with that of the Service, and if i can't talk to them they can't make a diagnosis and therfore offically the problem dosn't exist.
For example last week i was doing a full time job while basically having a full breakdown and having to share 15 years of emotion with those i care for. I had to do this on MSN as i couldnt get away from work to be with my closest friends, yet i couldn't show this emotion to people i work with because they knew nothing about my problems. So as you can imagine foing a full days work then spending on average another 12 hours talking about your ddepest fears didn't leave time for sleep, food etc hence I could count the number of hours i slept last week on one hand. No wonder i nearly lost the plot totally.
Hence why it got so bad at the week end as i was due back work monday and as the time ticked away i got worse and worse.
Luckily after shouting at the shrink he gave me a week off work finally realising the tension of having to be back at work wasn't helping.
For too long ive been going to navy docs and noone really took me seriously and because i wanted to work I just got on with it. Alot of stuf didn't go into my records because it was considered too trivial, yet looking back theres a clear line linking it all together.
Eg I have repeatedly had problems of glucose in my urine, yet it was always explained away as" youve been doing a lot of exercise or youve got a cold". Isolated examples fair enough, but not repeated cases, but because no one thought there was a problem there was to record, hence no history to trace. Theyve only recently started doing blood tests after having to go to sickbay after nearlt collapsing and either having silly low sugar or high sugar levels.
Its just got to the stage where if needs be I'll tell the navy to fuck off so i can do whats best for me.
#48
Originally Posted by warrenpenalver
For example last week i was doing a full time job while basically having a full breakdown and having to share 15 years of emotion with those i care for. I had to do this on MSN as i couldnt get away from work to be with my closest friends, yet i couldn't show this emotion to people i work with because they knew nothing about my problems. So as you can imagine foing a full days work then spending on average another 12 hours talking about your ddepest fears didn't leave time for sleep, food etc hence I could count the number of hours i slept last week on one hand. No wonder i nearly lost the plot totally.
#58
Originally Posted by Pennywise
LMAO
Cant see that picture Warren...
But yeah I got back 'ok' ... Nearly fell asleep though while driving
Cant see that picture Warren...
But yeah I got back 'ok' ... Nearly fell asleep though while driving
will deffo have to do it again
#62
Originally Posted by warrenpenalver
Originally Posted by Pennywise
it went so bloody quick.
See you in the loony bin
#64
Originally Posted by warrenpenalver
Depends if its a house hold one or big wheelie bin
Gonna be tight
in more than one way
Gonna be tight
in more than one way
#65
Originally Posted by ADRENALINE KA
im sure we could all lube up so we slide in smoothly together
So youre both dumped
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