Less. I know not much about you or your situation but what I can say is many people very close to me have been through what you're going through now. It's very hard to see when you're so close but things can get better but you have to change them.

Counsellors and psychiatrists seem to be shite and only listen to you; However an incredibly good friend of mine had cognitive therapy which changed the way she though, not what Chip has shown above but real ways to treat how you think about things. This person had attempted suicide many times and used to cut themselves badly (one example being the 48 stitches in their stomach) and now, despite being down every now and then (but hey, who isn't) when they start getting a little 'mad' they know how to control it. And now I don't have to hide razor blades from them.

It CAN get better. Anything I can do...