Less hun, get hold of you girlfriend tell her how your feeling, she loves you for who are are, if you did anything stupid, she'd end up hurting as much as you are now, I know you probably feel like you'll bring other people down if you talk to them but trust me that isn't the case, your girlfriend will be glad if you spoke to her and told her how you feel I'm sure, shows you can tell her anything, she will want to be there for you, you won't bring her down hun honestly!!