Yep thats how i felt, pride took over i thought no i cant take meds to live a life...then i hit rock bottom and contemplated suicide Thats when my Missus and mates said (yes said) you got to take the fucking medication you spastic mutherfucker(Nice!) but for once i saw there point i was at rock bottom what the hell did i have to loose! Even though the meds will most probably end up giving other probs down the line its better than being dead! Not looked back so far, even though i feel like a junkie, but if its good enuff for the famous its good enuff for me!