i have time where i can be really hyper the next i can be very low an want to do somthing silly an time where i can get very angry an agressive which i didnt even now i had in me it sckares me at times as to what i could do now im sorry about the spelling an grammer i have dislexia i now it not an excuse
i hate who i am i lock myself in my room an drink an at times i feel i can take anyone on an i dont care what happens to me i have a medical condition which gets me to my all time low which is most days as i have incontenace i have to wear pads everyday i have to put pipes into me to juswash me out but this can not work most times an im left with myself smelling i hate myself iv had times where iv had a nife to my stomach jus to try an cut the badness out of me i hate it i juswant to be normal the only thing that keeps me sane at the min is my car an keeping myself to myself
i recon deppression is in everyone evryone suffers in one way or other jus some more than others im at the stage where i can go for weeks and weeks where i dont eat an i drink alot at the min but the simptoms go on for ages so ill stop now lol