Chin up buddy. get yourself to the doctors in the morning, tell the doc EVERYTHING, and they should be able to help you, whether through medication and/or counseling. as i said in the other thread on here, im currently on anti depressants, was going through a tough time myself till i admitted defeat and went to the docs. stay strong and hope you get everything back on track mate. im sure you will get through it and have happier times ahead.