Thanks for all your kind words.

It feels easier to share this situation with people. I think im going to just hang in here till the morning, ive got all the lights off and the doors shut and locked and am using my laptop for light....i feel safer like this.

Im a recovery driver that sits on call on the side of the motorway, I basically live here too. Theres only me and another guy here, he's 40+, stinks and is not the nicest bloke to chat to at the best of times let alone now!

Someone asked how old I am, i'm 27.

I dont think its brave putting all this up here, i'm at my lowest and am past the point of caring. I didnt want to bottle it all up and I know that theres kind people one here that could raise me up a few notches on the ladder.

Sorry for sounding blunt and also for not replying to you all individually, im not really in the right mindset but am trying....