look mate life`s full of shit at times!! i dont know you but i really do care for you as ive been there.. i spend a large time in the army and lost alot in my time friends and family included for gods sake and i mean this as ive been places and thought i wasnt coming home alive please hold this very positive thought!! THINK OF YOUR KIDS. pull ya self together..if you just want someone to talk to i will pm you my number and we can talk all night. other than that get yourself straight to the doctors in the morning please.

atb mat.