Its happened to me before,honestly though...it never affected me...but then again i'm a heartless bastard(I guess)
When i had mine it was 5p.m on a friday night,i had another 7 hours left of my shift and after the first 5-10 seconds of the intial shock i thought to myself "bonus,i'll be out with my mates tonight"..and i was..lol
In my opinion if someone wants to take thier life,then f**k them....i won't lose any sleep over them...and its a free sick leave I.M.O.
So Porkie(Lee) you are not a freak in the slightest,i know LOADS of drivers that feel the same and they have had one(or more) one unders.
Its worse when its an accident or if its a kid,thankfully i've never had one of those.
Although i have mates that have completley lost it over a one under,so i can understand where you(cossie4i) come from.
But with this credit crunch i knew there would be more jumpers and there have been!
I'd have one tommorow,then i could have Christmas off