thrush first of all give the cash back either way,,,, you dont need it so dont take it as it makes you a bad person imo,,,,, or just a person with no morals and loves money,,,,,, i fucking hate money tbh

you need to talk to him as feeling bitter dont seem to have helped you mate,,,,, listen to his shite/ is storey /his reasons/his regrets/ whatever hes got to say
THEN think about it without him contacting you as its eassy to get lost in the moment

i dont get along woth my family at all as other members of my family cant accept i was a shite who could not be bullied and held grudges longer than they could belive,,,, when ever i done wrong my family LOVED when i got caught and also they always said to my parents im a discrace for taking drugs and doing other bad stuff and ill never get by in life,,, the judge me on everything and belive there choices are good and mine are always wrong YET they have never been in these situations

my parents too scared to answer back,,,, or maybe they belive them just add fuel to the fire by reporting all the bad things

when they heard about the fact ive got more equity in my home than all of my 3 cousins put together and its the second home ive bought after fucking up and loosing the other one and not taking there advice what i should have done AGAIN the honestly hate it sooo much that they WONT talk about it,,,, never been congratulated for being lucky


infact they slag me off and say all i done was get with a girl whos daddy carried me,,,, when all he done was sell us a house we could afford when my parents threw me out under my uncles/aunts recomendation so i could be a man and suport my child,,,,,,

now cause of all this shit stiring when i try to get along with my family i then see how they get twisted by others and we do nothing but row SO i choose to keep my distance,,,,, and tbh I prefer it,,,,, i talk to them,,,,, i NEVER call them as i look at them as my little girls grandparents,,,, i dont count them as parents,,,, i pretend to others we get along OK but HONESTLY the things ive done for my old man and NEVER got appriciated for

I EVEN GOT STABBED cause of my old man when he went to row with a gang of kids due to him being depressed his best mate died,,,,, i could see how it was gonna go so i stepped in and took the presure off him and i got 3 stiches in my back cause of it,,,,,,,, he never even said sorry for putting me in that situation let alone stopped him getting hurt worse


i know its another long arse reply im doing but its to give you a idea that even if you do hold a grudge you would feel better inside knowing YOU are the bigger person and you wont be tied inside with emotions,,,,, you will be incontrol of what happens and he will have to accept your desision


i HATE going to the misus family things cause i havent got a family who when they invite me actually want ME to go,,,, they invite me for my little girl

thats not a nice thing to have mate,,,,, it really hurts at times and its prib why i act such a fool in life i guess and try to hard for people to accept me perhaps,,,,, i dont know


what i DO know is i have tired LOTS of times to be accepted and get along with myh family and i discovered that its THEM who dont actually like me,,,,


its time to show your a real man mate and dont worry if you cry ect,,,,, its fucked up i know but just talk to him and understand how YOU will actually feel about it


NEVER take money off him for the first 2 years either mate,,,,,,, money gets in the way of people in life and its a bitch !

AGAIN SORRY FOR A LONG REPLY BUT PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO READ SOME IF POSS AND MAYBE IT COULD HELP YOU