you just need to get a lift on your spirits mate

all this doom and gloom mongering makes you sound like one of those people that walk around with boards claiming "the end of the world is nigh, repent to god!!!" etc etc (i know it's hard, i'm just trying to make light of the situation you are in )

it's a big chunk missing from your life that you may or may not get back, but the sooner you start working towards an end to your douldrums the better it will be, not just for you, but all around you

in a short while we'll be reading a post headed "yay me!!! i've done something really great!!!" and you'll go on about something thats turned your world back the right way up again, be it a girl, a car, a job, a pet ( ) anything really

and besides, when you are happy it makes you happier because it'swhat it does, but when you are sad you stay sad
watchlaurel and hardy films, some disney flicks (on second thoughts, they are all really fucked up if you watch them as adults) soemthing to take your mind off of what you are thinking and get some happyness into yourself

it might be an idea (seeing as you are in enfild) to get a few peeps together and go and watch borat at the cinema or somethng not only will you be out with mates, you'll also be doing something you'll enjoy (just because you might not want to go to the cindema, we'll make sure you enjoy yourself even if it means watching borat )

so there you go, that is your thing to do for the enxt week, arrange a cinema trip to see a film, next saturday