it's ok mate, i rememebr the original post too and she's turned out to be a bit of a fucker really

2 things you need to do asap are stop drinking (if you haven't already, because that's just going to fuck you up even more) and inform your work (even though that takes a bit more bollcoks if you don't know what the reaction is going ot be)

once you've done these 2 things you can figure out what's left to be doing, like getting on with the rest of your life

alternativly, you can imagine she was a car that you had built up over the past 6 years, you've gone down the road and totaled it and now you are thanking your lucky tassles that you are still alive even after the car tried to kill you
what would you do them?
you'd start another project see