Its just so hard i met her 6 years ago and within 3 months she was diagnosed with crohns disease so she was in and out of work up til last year, i had to work in london as when she fell ill i was left with all the bills to pay and where i work there is always lots of overtime and the job is very secure etc, shes probably had 7 jobs in the last 5 years and she was really ill last year when she had 2 very large abcesses in her stomach she was in hospital for weeks with drains coming out then she was discharged, she went for a scan 2 weeks later and was given the all clear 3 days later her brother came down from scotland where shes from and took her up for a break as she still wasnt feeling to good and near her parents house in scotland ANOTHER abcess burst inside her ........she was rushed to hospital and spent the next 6 months up there .........it has been hell for both of us her dealing with the illness and me having all the worry and working away to pay the bills etc...................the thing is in august ths yr the hospital had a new drug for her to try ad shes been on that ever since going up to scotland every 4 weeks to have the treatment and shes finally feeling loads better, and i feel she doesnt need me anymore as shes moving out and renting her own place and working 2 jobs to pay for it all
the other problem is i found a lump in my mans parts a few weeks ago and i really wanted to tell her but finding the right time wasnt easy as to much stress can make her ill, and ive been a little distant oviously not wanting to go out sociallising much as ive been feeling really worried and concerned..........i was going to tell her the the weekend i was off but she ended it on the friday.......so i had all the worry about her and also the worry i had cancer etc.......i finally went to the doctors last week and the've comfirmed ive got a cyst like lump and need scans for further info etc.......i told the wife i was really upset and she said "it doesnt change things ill be here for u etc..but as a friend ".........
i just feel really cheated that he last 6 years ive done everything for her ive given her love and attention and we've been through hell and back.....ive never asked for anything from her and when i really need her to get me through what im going through shes not there, .....i just feel so lost at the moment ....sorry for going on