i found the best thing for me was to keep busy at work, and i got me rot box to work on so i kept pretty busy,your not the only one chap, bet theres a lot more than u think that are probarbly aquaintances of yours that the same, as most blokes/women,its not pub talk so to speak. that medication i was on wasnt adictive or any side effects with me personaly but it did help ,i was worried bout being dependant on anything,me sister in law is terrible she cant go in any social situation without geting parranoid and having to leave, she couldnt even sit round me mums for christmas dinner with her family one year,god knows what she was on she always looked smacked out her skull, but shes got through it now and we had each other to talk to so its not like we was dealin with it on our own,shes doin well now so alls good
i agree with boschman where early drug use hasnt helped me, e's n acid in the early 90s has probarbly took its toll,me own fault gotta deal with it ,hope whoever is mental like me gets to grips with it goin to see your gp is the best thing you can do ,good luck