Robbie D. Thats about 80% how I feel And I was recently diagnosed with depression after trying to kill myself.

Worth talking to a professional about it.

I went through a bad phase of Panic attacks as a child. Eventually i found out that it was triggered by dogs as i was bit by a dog when younger. Once I understood the trigger I was halfway there to getting over the attacks. Even now i could never own a dog, but I can stroke one without being afraid. I still shit myself when they jump at you even though its mainly a friendly action.