Chip, I know it doesn't seem too bad. I do miss stuff out when i try to think ont he spot but I think my main shit has been psychological.

There's been so many times I've felt so worthless and no use to anybody. I have often felt like it wouldn't make a difference to anybody whether I was here or not and that I'm going nowhere in life.

I can honestly say that although I do feel a bit down now and then, I don't feel at all like that now.

The only thing still getting to me is lonliness and the fear that I might end up alone forever.

Sad I know, but unfortunately I can't control that.

When I say I'm cursed though, it's just little things that I'm talking about, like the insurance and the phone, and like how I had to buy 6 months tax and only get 5 cause I needed the car on the 30th of November