Reason I posted originally was that I'm just a pissed off with it all really lol.
The car was hated by the ex. I loved it and had many a great track day with it. The kids never went without and I never spent what I couldn't afford.
I designed, built and modified it along the way as no parts off the shelf for it like a Cossie or MK 2 Escort.
Marriage is history and everything in storage for last 3 years. Not seen a wheel turned in anger for over 10 years. Stuck in a 1 bed flat but looking. House I wanted with amazing garage looks like it's going to fall through due to seller not declaring planning issues unresolved.
I'm 48 years old and just see life flying by with no light at the end of the tunnel.
I have so many plans for the car but wondering if I will ever get there. It makes me feel like jacking the lot in and turning my back on the whole car scene. I don't want to and probably won't but so disillusioned at the moment.
The adrenaline is awesome and I've almost forgotten what it feels like. Used to love going out but always the reception I had when I came back in was amazing and the car used to get swamped as it really did surprise people. I miss that.
Just in a rut but it will pass. I thought the other day just get rid, settle down and let the car go.
I am always making, fixing or helping out (when not living in a flat) and would feel like my right arm was missing if I didn't do something. Just need all my tools around me. I have the equivalent of a single garage full of tools and equipment that I have not seen for over 3 years.
I will get over myself lol - thanks for listening