Originally Posted by Rebuilding 2012

Well here it is, a full run down of what went wrong with me and ep . Yes it's me Luke and this post is not inviting a slagging match but thanking those of you who new what happened to me and stood buy me and apologising to those of you who did not get me at my best and lost out !

As your all probably aware I finally gave up last year aug sept time after having cars my life for 15 years ! This was not an easy. Choice but my heart was not in it and my life had gone totally fucked up !

I'm not asking for any sympathy but I just want you to understand how and why things got out of control and so bad .
Those of you who have known me for years will remember the lady ( and I use that term loosely ) I met in 2004 and very stupidly fell in love with ! Well alot of the mistakes I made from abc Motorsport to present was because I spent the last 7 years odd of my life trying to hang on to this shit relationship. Eaven tho every one kept telling me she was a skank taking me for everything she could and yes Danny you were right! I still kept on. She would empty me of money and forever pick me up and drop me as and when she found a new bloke! But yes I went back every time ! I did have my kids and yes I would not change them for the world !

Any way she ran off with a bloke in November 2010 which totally fucked me up and many of you no work started to suffer but still for my kids and familie I tried to get her back and did just before xmas that year . This was my final stupid mistake ! She did not want me back she was a clever cunt with a plan and that plan was to get everything she could out of me Ie cars cash jewellery tvs house all done up then finally dump me over a text on aug the 6 th 2011 leaving me Basicly homeless with a bag of clothes , no car no bussines nothing . Best Bit of all is the bloke she ran off with was the same one from the previous year and had recently. Even convicted of child abuse ( beating a child) . As you all no since the privious year and all the shit I had started to drink heavy . This tipped me over the edge !! I was gagging for the end of every day just to kneck Bottle after bottle of wine . I took the bitch to court as I did not want this new man near my children , as she moved him in the day I left . NICE not . I got what is called a prohibitive steps order on her which ment her new feller could not go anywhere near my kids but as the good mother she is she would rather see her new man so I ended up with the kids 4 days and 3 nights a week every week from last sept till now . Needles to say staying in hotels and friends well those I had left was not easy but I did it ....

It all got a little to much for me in December last year and on the 19 th dec 2011 I found myself sat buy railway tracks with three bottles of wine and two bottles of night nurse totally at the end of everything . I could not tell you what was on my mind that day but I no I was a broken hurt man which I had not eaven admited to myself let alone friends . I took all the. Substances with me and passed out before I eaven made it to the track . I was found and sectioned in hospital to dry me out and to have councillng which to be honest I needed ! I left hospital in jan this year and have been getting on just me and the kids quietly . I have accepted how badly I fucked up and realised I lost everything in life for a woman that was not worth anything !

Towards the end of ep I had a busness partner that nicked money out the company , I moved from. Bolney to Horsham with afr which was a massive mistake I could not afford to run .......
Danny tried and tried to keep me going he eaven lent me dosh to try and get me on my feet again. But it all had to end ... I had to hit the bottom !

I had alot of happy customers and some pissed off ones towards the end . Ill apologise and thank you all ,

So slim and dan thank you for being there and trying to keep me going and still being cool now and alowing me to sort you out .

Thanks to dan warren for listening and keeping cool and alowing me to sort out .

Thanks to Danny p for being there through the whole 7 years

Apologies to peter jan but I still don't no where you sent it !! Don't slag me off pm me now my head is straight a d let's get to the bottom !

Apologies to Antony white for not concerntrating on your car coz my head was not in it. It also thank you for. Being there to talk to !

Apologies to danster for my mess up but I did sort you out well !!!

And a reminder to all those of you like moonstone Steve who found it easy to have a dig when you don't no the full story ! You car was mint and from all my fuck ups there were still alot of good well mapped cars I did and was always willing to help !

The s1 John sarger sorry but no sorry there I gave the whole story at the time and I still stand right in this !

Hope this gives some understanding ! Sorry to all i owe that to and please do not turn this thread in to a bitch match . Luke