been having a bad run with work etc (self employed).over the last 18 months or so ive seen by business shrink to almost nothing-it was never a great empire anyway,it was just me,selling the cars i liked,a few repairs and some recovery work-enjoying life as it covered my outgoings and bills for my family.
3 months or so ago after realising i had lost(wife redundant,cars not selling,still having to pay bills) half my money pot i decided to have one last throw of the dice,keep my unit on and try another venture alongside selling some cheaper cars-my ramp2rent idea.
sadly it hasnt generated the interest i (and everyone else around me)thought it would,so the money i invested into equipment and advertising etc has now also disappeared.im not talking huge amounts but enough to affect me,especially as the car sales has gone very up and down and the only cars selling seem to be small,clean ones with pas(the ones everyone trys to buy/sell!!!),hence them being hard to source,with small profits.
im now at a point where i have to decide wether to give up the unit and either try to get a job or work from home with less overheads(i have the space and understanding neighbours).
also influencing this decision is the fact i had an awful attack of some sort when driving on the m6 on monday where i couldnt breathe,focus or think straight.i managed to get the 2 miles or so home but ended up at a&e that night as i really thought i was dying.im waiting for the results of some tests now from my doctor as the hospital was stupidly busy and after a re-assuring scan on my heart etc they told me they couldnt see anything untoward i went home to see my gp the next day.i still feel funny,anxious and panicky at times so am trying to take it easy at mo and avoiding driving as much as i can.im not sure yet if it is stress related or not.

so as we speak today ive virtually made my mind up to sell my recovery truck,sell of my equipment,move out of the unit and cut my losses.i cant apply for jobs as im not sure what is wrong with my health at the mo,plus im 40 years old,so not masses of jobs out there for an old mechanic!
i think my health is now paramount and there are some other issues i feel i need to get sorted including things ive lived with and put up with for years,but im not getting any younger..
at the moment i feel like ive let myself down and my family down,but hopefully i can get myself back together,sort my shit out and things may get better.i know there are people in todays climate much worse off than i am at the mo but im just a bit low today and worried about what the future will bring health and wealth-wise.