Matt, i NEVER wanted kids, and even after Esmay was born i certainley didnt want another. But i have two kids now, i love them both so much id die for them....cant imagine life without them, but looking back was i right then saying i never wanted kids? Yes, as i would still say the same, which makes me feel guilty as hell....And it is like you say, its the own space thing and the being tied that put me off and is what i still have to battle now and struggle with...its hard!