Thanks for the kind words.

Right now my head is a total mess and I simply can't think straight. I don't know what I'm going to do from one moment to the next.

One minute I'm so calm it scares me and then next I'm having thoughts that would only cause pain to those that I love and love. I've gone over things in my mind so many times and I've cried so much today I just don't have any tears left to cry.

The numbness I'm feeling seems there only to try and protect me from what has happened.

Thank you all once more for your words, some even raised a smile of sorts.