I hate flying with passion yet ive been dragged on loads of long haul flights

went to spain last week on a four day bender for my mates stag do, there was 18 of and i was shitting it, all my mates where taking the piss especially when i told my mate on the window seat to pull the blind down, the air hostess came round and told him to open it, i said why ? she replied because i want to be the first person to see the engine if it blows up, all i could do was order another stella and hold tight