Was off work for 8-9 weeks with "depression" a few years back, for some reason i dont like to think of it like that or even call it that , dont no why really , but anyway started thinking some crazy thoughts here and there about dying (sounds mad i know) as in cant shake it , will get older and thats it etc blah blah blah dont really wont to get into it , now still get these thoughts now and then and get a sudden panic but for some reason can control it better in my head anyway thats all really

fine now , dying fcuk it