i am having some serious problems at the mo

to sum up as much as i can bring myself to type claire has moved out and it looks like its all over, this after 14 years of being together and 7 years of living together is fucking pulling me apart and i really dont know what to do or how to go on people say take it one step at a time but all i feel like doing is fucking well stepping under a train to ease the pain. this i know i will never do as i aint no coward

i, like everyone including her parents, never saw it coming and she says its nothing ive done so its nothing i can put right

i dont really know why im posting such things on a public forum like i say dont know what the fuck im doing end of

turned in for work on monday and left about 10 mins later in tears after speaking to a very good mate there, i aint been back since, am going to force myself in tomorrow cos i know i have to

im now living in a house, our house, on my own that everywhere i turn i see things that remind of the person i still love to bits and miss dearly even after the worst 3 days of my life

my close mates have been absolute diamonds over the past few days sorry to the mates on here that are finding out about it like this but i aint been in any kind of state to be ringing you lot up telling you things that at the mo i cant bring myself to repeat hence the notice to all