first of all suicide, wtf like paddy said easy weak bollox it might seam like the easy way out but life is tooo important and you only get one chance, one time through so make it the best single pass you can.

their family, they want me in their life, offer them the world????? do you mean you partner and the kids. it doesnt matter what sex you are really just seems wierd that its totally missed out even their sex but thats un-important.

they have chose to leave, now like i said you get one shot at life so make it the best posible time, i understand that you are going through a really hard time but you have to try to get back out there and enjoy life again or just a little.

i heard summin once that stuck with me for a long time " what dont kill us makes us stronger" i think that applies to alot of things and i know you dont see it now but you will get happier and time will help ease the pain.

they walked away so i think you should try and start a new life, its shitty but dont let sum one else ruin your life, get back out with your mates and try and enjoy life again.

i hope things work out for you and that life gets better, i think that you should get a cossy and let that take you mind off things and it'll deffo keep you entertained.

good luck

matt