i lost a good freind this way

he was living down by the wash south east .. on contract work

had a wife and 2 loverly daughters one 19 one 24

he came back home to liverpool ..met us in a local pub and drank all night ...lot older than me 45 but was drinking buddy local pubs

so at 4am we all said are good bys to the person

and he went back home and GASSED HIMSELF IN HIS CAR

there was no look on his face as in depressed or pissed off

and i feel gutted i could have stopped him doing it ..but never new what was going on in his head STILL DONT

he was life and sole of the party in the pub and sunday nights was never the same ..

I MISS YOU JOHN ...and ive cried so many times about it

eyes welling up now

as they say its good to talk