i know how you feel. we had our HARRY for 11 years(from a puppy) and i saw him get knocked over and killed. that was nearly 3 years ago now and i still feel gutted and miss him. he was treated as one of the family and was never given 2nd best. if it wasnt good enough for us or the kids then it wasnt good enough for him. they say times a great healer, but it doesnt replace. i always think of the good times and it makes me smile, then i get a bit down as i start thinking about that day and, what if? just be greatful that you have had the enjoyment and pleasure and the memories of mans best friend. (something alot of people never understand).