About 4 years ago I realised that if I didn't stop gambling that I would never have anything in life. I was losing money on machines, often over a ton a time and having to flog stuff like games consoles, guitars etc to replace the money to pay bils

I realised I needed to make a change and after a couple of failed attempts to stop I managed to finally quit. I didn't touch a bandit for 2 years I could even stand and watch mates play and see them lose a tenner etc without thinking "right it's gonna pay now, I'll bang some cash in".

That seems like a world away now.

Last night I lost yet more cash at my local over the road from my house. I pretty much only went there to gamble I realised afterwards, through my anger, that I'm totally hooked again, to the extent that it's potentially dangerous.

Plus when I lose I feel so bad, and so angry, mostly at myself for being so stupid.

I've got to get out of it, and this time it's got to be for good

If I can't shake it then I'm never gonna get anywhere in life, and it's so worng to lose money I can't afford and then have to borrow off others which then puts them out unfairly.

Dunno why I'm telling everybody on here...... just good to let it out and I guess that if people know I'm quitting it might make me a bit stronger in my resolve.

Thanks for reading folks