Not really been a good day - ended up handing in my notice this morning even tho I didn't want to

For those that don't know, music is my first passion in life - I started out playing (drums) in band when I was younger and gigging a lot, then when I left school I went to work for a drum shop/company in London. Sadly the guy who ran the place was a complete c**t and I was treated really badly there. I stayed on for 2years as all I really wanted to do was work in a drum shop!

I did leave it tho and have done various things since, but August last year I returned to the music trade when I found a young new company in my home town opened up that sell musical instruments. Went down there and had a chat and found there were in need of someone to build and run their drum department, and jumped at the chance, even tho it meant taking a pay cut (was told that my pay owuld be lower initially, but later on it would rise to what I was on, and then go up as the company got bigger and better)

Anyway, after various run in's with this fucking sudo-lesbian Canadian manger bird who is like the staff manager, I ended up resigning this morning

I really don't wanna leave as it's ten mins from my house and has the potential to be a really really great store to work in and run, but I am just constantly being lied to all the time! Mainly by this manager bird. She's got this real power trip going on and thinks she's really important as she's "management" ( and keeps trading on this "manager" title she has, which is funny as I also have a manager title as I am the drum dept manager) even tho she is only middle management and worth fuck all. Anyway she keeps giving me (and the other chap who runs the guitar showroom) empty promises and meaningless speeches about how intrinsic we are to the companies growth and it's future and then following day lays it all to waste by going on another power trip.

Anyway there's a whole big history which I won't go into, but at the beginning of December she tells me she needs me to go and work upstairs in the offices, basically answering phones and taking sales calls, even tho I'm supposed to be running the drum showroom downstairs (on my own) which I wasn't happy about as I can get paid twice as much and get commision doing cold calls for a window company. I agreed on the promise that at the beginning of Jan I wouldn't work up there anymore. I also promised that if she went back on her word or lied to me I would resign.

Well today she told me I need to go back up there to "answer emails". So I challenged her as to why I can't answer emails from my computer in the downstairs showroom and she couldn't give me a straight answer. The reason I put "answer emails" in speech marks is cos I know thats not what she wants me to do. We had a girl leave the office last week who did most of the sales calls, and I know that all this slag wants is to get me up there and basically have me replace the girl who left - which isn't why I left. The reason I left is cos I was being lied to - AGAIN.

Now, part of the reason is cos I made a promise I would resign if I was lied to and asked to go back and work in the office (one of the things I have abotu working upstairs and taking sales calls is I am being paid about £4k LESS than another chap who sits up there all day answering the phone). I fell that if you repeatedly lie to someone all the time, then you can't possibly respect them, and if I am not being respected then I don't wanna work with those type of people. I wanna work with people who do respect me and do appreciate what I do and the contribution I make to the company - and I don't see any of that coming my way. I am tossed about all over the place, lied to constantly, generally disrespected and whilst they say I am appreciated, it's not like they show it with performance related pay! I just feel it is all empty words and bullshit lies....

But I'm now sat here feeling sad that I feel I have been forced out of a job I really liked - could have been a dream job for me - and wondering if I have done the right thing by resigning. I know I did it partially for the right reasons (the whole thing about being disrespected and lied too, and generally treated like shit) but I worry I have also done it cos I am very headstrong and had to do it cos I threatened I would and she called my bluff. I don't want to think I quit purely to make a poitn cos who wins then?

Have I dont the right thing? I am not so sure anymore

Lastly, this is the first time EVER in so many years I have left a job without having one to go to - and the thought is a bit scary I will readilly admit

Sorry for the rant, needed to get it off my chest